Well I know how the best will fall
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whilst in the midst of my beer tasting adventure, some time after the fourth bottle, but before the sixth, i had an idea about the termination process for regit. i was inspired by reading TJ's last post, which summed up his reasons for leaving the blogsphere. these reflect my feelings, but to which should be added my extreme and virulent reactions to certain concepts of 'communities' and my illogical division of the world into people i like and people i am aggressively indifferent to. this isn't, in a token attempt to keep things in perspective, a wrong or right issue, just a good and bad one (i just love the way i can find two songs that sum up my feelings like that. there really is something to be said for being an anal music geek).

back on the topic of farewell gestures, this blog used to be willfully and explicitly about me. there was angst, alcohol, drugs and sex liberally strewn across these pages. hell the moment my extended period of celibacy was ended was chronicled here in excruciating detail. i've had to change the subject matter partly due to the fact my life is very different now to what it was. but even if it was the same i wouldn't blog the same way now. and that kindda pisses me off. and it scares me that i would have probably avoided the blogsphere altogether, which aside from anything else, would have meant not meeting Loki and well, y'know...

but in any case, as a sort of an eulogy to regit, i've preparing something that indulges the bloodstained_narcissim of the clown prince of angst, masquerading as brooding king of pain, hovering over his nest of pain protected by his armour plating of bullshit. i shall post a series of entries dedicated to my life from '94-'04. over 2000 words in tortured prose, wholly, utterly and totally devoted to me. i shall start these from next month and once they're done, regit shall be terminated. in fact, consider it a celebration as well as a farewell.

or at least that's the plan. i've just written over 2000 words for those posts, and balancing out putting in enough detail to be true to the spirit of this blog, with the fact that some things are just not appropriate for this place, has been tough. i may chicken out and not blog anything at all, but i suspect not.

anyhow, due date, towards the end of the first week on June.

mail : bigreg at budweiser dot com